The writing slump is ending.
Too many medical fears – my wife’s recent close call after contracting a dangerous infection on top of everything else – and financial woes threw my motivation to write fiction into a tar pit.
The fear that comes with uncertainty and morbidity takes a toll on anyone’s psyche and I was just another one of its recipients. Creative energy was quietly replaced by dark observations and the subsequent frustrations of the world’s current political state. Mindless entertainment and mobile device games passed the time between work and family obligations. Sleep became more and more desirable to pass the days when it was an option. A few too many sips of bourbon helped ensure that.
Looking back, I can point out a plethora of reasons I ended up here, but what’s the point? All I can do is recognize where I am and set a new direction. Wallowing in self-pity and introspective pondering won’t accomplish anything, except, perhaps, provide a character trait in an new story.
Today I found this incredible discomfort ripping at my heart. I loathe the idea of complacency and living the mundane, and yet, I found myself there. An overwhelming urge to write something – anything – is pushing me to write this self-reflective piece now. So I’m going with it. When it’s complete, a new world begins.
Perhaps 30 Songs for November was a little ambitious. When I started the month, I had no anticipation of the numerous events that would occur that brought me to today. It was a transformative month and a welcome one at that. Perhaps the most important event of the moment is the return of my old day job, which kicks off later today.
Another one from the Dropkick Murphys. “The Season’s Upon Us” is their take on a Christmas song about a dysfunctional family holiday gathering I bet most of all of us can identify with. All in good fun, of course. Let the holiday season commence!
Going back to my year of birth again with “Search and Destroy” from Iggy and the Stooges. I love this song. I love the raw garage rock sound of the guitars, totally my personal of playing when I used to play in bands.
Today is about renewing strength and energy. About standing up in the face of adversity, oppression, and fear. It’s a personal need to stand up and charge forward for the sake of health and family. It’s a societal need to rise against terror.